why blog?

So you're probably wondering why I wanted to start this blog in the first place. It's actually quite simple. I'm feeling depressed. Like, really depressed. I've had depression since I was twelve years old, so it's not like I've been waiting until I was an adult to talk about my feelings, but I had this urge to do it publicly. I've been through therapist, after therapist, after psychiatrist, after group therapy, to a new therapist and a new psychiatrist. And I'm still depressed! Doesn't that suck? 

I wanted to make this blog because I am finally coming to terms with my brain health (my doctor likes calling it that because she says it makes it feel more like a "real" illness because the brain is an organ and you could easily be suffering from kidney failure). I'm finally ready to talk about it. All of it. Don't worry, this blog isn't going to be a sad tumblr sort of thing where all I post are gifs from sad movies and try to trigger you all into feeling my pain. That's the opposite of what I want! 

I want this blog to help erase the stigma about mental illness. I want it to be a safe place to people to talk about what's really going on (not just what you choose to post on social media). I want to improve my mood. I hope it will improve your mood too! 

And no, this blog isn't going to just be about me overcoming and learning to live with my mental illnesses (I've been working on that for eight years, dudes). I want to talk about my other interests! Because I have them! I love singing! I love singing so much. I've wanted to be on Broadway since I was seven years old, and it's never not brought joy into day to sing at the top of my lungs in my car by myself. I'm currently learning yoga. I'm finding it incredibly fascinating, but also physically strenuous! I'm enjoying the challenge, and I think my body appreciates it too. As you can see, there's a lot more to me than meets the eye. I hope you enjoy the ride.